VOL. 01
— Chapter 01 —
THE BEGINNING
I loved mathematics. I loved logic. I loved smart work. I didn't like memorising things.
Chemistry? That subject has no logic — just reactions, facts, and endless memorisation. I hate it.
I somehow passed Class 12 with 85 marks in chemistry — the lowest among all my subjects — by cramming only the questions my teacher marked as "important".
— Chapter 02 —
THE FALL
My parents believed in me more than I believed in myself. They paid hefty coaching fees — fees they couldn't afford. They cut corners, sacrificed comforts, borrowed money — all so their son could crack JEE and make it to IIT.
Papa never bought anything for himself that year. I didn't realise it then. I realise it now.
Their whole hope was on me. Their entire world revolved around one word —
I FAILED.
JEE result came. I couldn't do it. I couldn't give them what they deserved.
The day the result came out — I didn't cry in front of anyone. I went to the terrace, sat alone, and broke down.
The day the result came out — I didn't cry in front of anyone. I went to the terrace, sat alone, and broke down.
They gave me everything. And I gave them... nothing.
That guilt — it doesn't go away. Even today, when I close my eyes, I can see my father's face trying to smile and say "koi baat nahi beta, aage dekh" — while hiding his own broken heart.
With no clarity about life, I took admission in B.Sc. (Hons) Chemistry at Ramjas College, Delhi University — ironically, the subject I hated the most. I didn't even know what chemistry really was.
With no clarity about life, I took admission in B.Sc. (Hons) Chemistry at Ramjas College, Delhi University — ironically, the subject I hated the most. I didn't even know what chemistry really was.
Then something happened in my life. Long story. Someday I'll tell you. Kisi ladki ka chakkar. 😏
That phase changed everything.
— Chapter 03 —
THE AWAKENING
I started studying chemistry from scratch — 12–15 hours every day for an entire year.
I read book after book. One of my favourites was Clayden.
I read book after book. One of my favourites was Clayden.
CHEMISTRY IS BEAUTIFUL.
👉 And slowly, I realised something shocking: Chemistry is the most beautiful subject in the world.
When reading started feeling repetitive, I wanted real, hands-on experience. So I decided to do research.
— Chapter 04 —
IISER — HEAVEN ON EARTH
I got admission into IISER — one of the best science institutes in India (and honestly, the world).
IISER Trivandrum felt like heaven. Labs, discussions, experiments — chemistry everywhere.
IISER Trivandrum felt like heaven. Labs, discussions, experiments — chemistry everywhere.
I was madly in love with chemistry. This is where I belong.
Then again, life happened. I dropped out. Long story again. Someday.
— Chapter 05 —
THE STRUGGLE
I worked with an ed-tech startup. Tried building my own chemical industry. Planned to make chemicals that could earn money.
Then lockdown hit.
Then lockdown hit.
EVERYTHING COLLAPSED.
Family struggles. Financial problems. Reality hit hard. I had no option but to return to teaching — something I once hated.
Teaching? The most boring job — same topic, same content, same years. How did I end up here?
Life took me to Latur, Maharashtra — the coaching hub. I taught in a large but low-quality coaching institute. Thousands of students, very few learners, and even fewer teachers who cared.
I felt lost. Again.
One day, without telling anyone...
I felt lost. Again.
One day, without telling anyone...
I LEFT EVERYTHING.
— Chapter 06 —
THE CLARITY
I travelled across India for 30 days. Visited ashrams. Stayed in silence. Thought deeply about life.
MY PURPOSE IS SIMPLE.
I am here to teach. Destiny chose this path for me.
Slowly, I started loving teaching — not as a job, but as a responsibility.
Today, teaching is something I do every day, and something I'll do for the rest of my life.
I love chemistry, and I love explaining it logically, without fear, without memorisation.
That's why I started my YouTube channel and this platform — to teach chemistry in my own way, my own style.
Today, teaching is something I do every day, and something I'll do for the rest of my life.
I love chemistry, and I love explaining it logically, without fear, without memorisation.
That's why I started my YouTube channel and this platform — to teach chemistry in my own way, my own style.
— Chapter 07 —
RESULTS
After returning from the ashram, I joined a residential school that admits some of the best students in Maharashtra.
My first batch. Here's what they achieved:
My first batch. Here's what they achieved:
Am I fully satisfied?
HONESTLY — NO.
I feel sorry that I couldn't help every student get in. Some missed by a few marks. Some had the potential but needed more time.
That haunts me.
That haunts me.
Every student who made it has a real story. And every student who didn't — I carry their weight with me.
That's why I'm building this platform. So that next time — no one gets left behind.
Results can always be better. But every rank is honest. Every success is earned. And I'm proud of that.
Results can always be better. But every rank is honest. Every success is earned. And I'm proud of that.
"If you once hated chemistry like I did — you're exactly where you need to be."
I'm still teaching. Still learning. Still finding time to record videos, build this website, and create meaningful assignments.
TO BE CONTINUED...